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sometimes there’s that one person whom we bares our souls into.making us vulnerable and accepted the fact that they have the power to hurt us. yet they are still the ones that gives us strength and courage silently. isn’t that ironic.

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Just checking my piles of paper the other day and found this note I wrote six months ago.

Here it is ( 2104132:30PM )

Hey ,it’s me.There’s so many thoughts running through my mind and if I’m in my old self again I’d probably be talking to you rather than writing it down.

I don’t know how or when to start actually.Still confused.You left me hanging, but on the other hand I’m also glad things turn out this way.I just wished that it happened earlier.But then again I’m also glad that it didn’t end so soon.Otherwise, I may never know how it feels to be happy, to be appreciated by someone special to you, the sorrows and joy of knowing someone like you.Emotions such as these may never felt again.

Dati pag lumalayo ako pinaparamdam mo na ayaw mo ako mawala.Kaya kahit ilang beses akong lumayo lagi pa rin akong bumabalik sayo.Halintulad sa isang ilog, gaano man kahaba, babalik at babalik pa din sa dagat.At ngayon kung kailan malalim na saka mo sasabihin na mali pala ang daan.Gusto ko sana itanong, bakit ngayon mo lang sinabi, bakit ngayon ka lang naglakas loob na palayain ako. Maaring may mga pangyayari na hindi pa angkop sa pagkakataon kaya siguro umabot ng ganito katagal bago ito mangyari. Masakit, pero sa isang banda nalaman ko din na kaya ko naman palang wala ka, na kaya kong palipasin ang isang araw ng hindi ka nakakausap. Pero inspite of that you were never out of my mind. Nakakalungkot lang kasi masyadoong biglaan. Pero wag ka mag alala, pinalaya na din kita.

Salamat sa mga panahong binigay mo para sa akin. I really appreciate them. Hindi ko alam kung kailan kita tuluyang makakalimutan. Maaring hindi, maaaring oo. Maybe, I could just pretend that I don’t love you anymore cause I know deep inside I’ll never feel this way again to anyone. Alam ko din namang hanggang dito na lang tayo.Ito na ang tuldok…  ( 250PM )

a little sunshine :)

..hello,I feel a little better now :).maybe somehow this subconcious mind of mine finally learned to accept that some things are meant to be the way it is and not how we want it to be.little by little,i am coping,little by little everyday 🙂

..no matter how bad or painful the situation is,always look at the brighter side of life 🙂